I want to thank you all sooo much for all your kind words. You don't know how much they meant, and still mean, to me. I actually reread your comments several times and they did put a smile on my face because of the sincerity and overall compassion in your words.
It wasn't easy but I believe that I got through it. It was extremely difficult because it happened when my husband was away on business. I went through all the phases - denial, anger, sadness, bitterness, and now, peace. I have a strong faith in God and I believe that when the time is right, it will happen. And Joy, your comment did give me hope - thank you!! :)
Like Maggie noted, it happened for a reason. I truly do believe that. And I will take this time to better myself so that when it does happen, my body will be ready. Besides, the practice isn't so bad ;) heh heh